Life’s a trip.
But I type all of this quite happily, because I AM happy.
The hand is healing.
And I’m back with an update.
Since it’s the end of the year, I thought that update could look like a 2019 retrospective too. A look back at all the things that happened in my life this year — the good, the less good, the downright wtf-ish.
Here’s what happened in 2019. The year that could have totally sucked, but didn’t.
When I was sitting in the dentist chair, about to get a root canal, less than 24 hours after my tendon repair surgery, my dentist asked how I was staying so positive. I told her I could bitch and complain and feel sorry for myself, or I could just keep going and know that I’ll be fine on the other side.
And that applies to a lot of shit in life.
And to be honest, I let myself wallow for an entire day. I sat on the couch, doped up on painkillers, barely conscious and crying when I was, and I said out loud to Rich, “I AM GOING TO WALLOW AND THEN I’M GOING TO BE DONE” and it was so damn cathartic. I highly recommend a good wallow bawl-fest when you need it folks.
All in all, I’m looking forward to 2020, but I’m not leaving 2019 behind in a hurry.
I learned a lot.
I took risks.
I started new adventures.
And I’m glad for all of it, even the pain in the ass stuff.
I mean, would I go back in time and maybe NOT sever a tendon on a f*cking can lid? Yeah, that I could have done without. But apparently the universe just wanted me to slow down and take some time for myself.
So, what’s in store for the next year?
In 2020 I will pour my heart into the plant shop.
I will continue to grow our media company.
I will let myself rest when I need it.
I will drink more water.
I will find out if I need a second surgery to fix my hand and remove scar tissue.
I will get that new tattoo I keep talking about.
I will get my prescription checked and buy new glasses.
I will not second guess myself.
I will be myself.
I will help others.